They Will Remain UnHappy!

If one is unhappy and depressed with his life, then he searches for internal, individual, personal happiness. This happiness can be so called spiritual mental peace otherwise in most of cases, the person is centralized with himself, his family, wife, children. His personal problems like illness, joblessness, are enough to make him worried and unhappy, disturbed. He has no higher goals in his life. He spends life to fulfil formalities for survival. All his efforts are either for himself or his family or relatives. Rest of world, he thinks, is cruel, unsafe, dangerous place with enemies.
I see people, who misbehave with others wearing cheap clothes, they hate poor looking people, they talk not respectful with countryside people. They, who are literate, English speaking, rich people, are uncivilized and uneducated. 
I see people around me – tall, with string muscles, but they are slaves. They are dizzying, sad, bored, looking for excitement in outer entertainment. They smell bad and to hide it they sprinkle sprays, deodorants, perfumes on their body and clothes. I do not hate them. I wonder to see how they live with superficial emotional expressions. They seem satisfied with their lifestyle. They have learned how to live like that. Their strongest desire is to be living. If they are living, they satisfy their ego, physical desires, tongue, and they just want anyhow not to die. It never been so difficult for me to tolerate such people and conditions of society. Now I’m fed up of all these. Everything has become irritating for me. I’m more sensitive for all these. I was taught to be the same person everyone are but now I’m changed. I’m unfit to this society and likeminded people are few.
23:41 Wednesday 24th May 2017

22nd May 2017

It was my first time I was in Gujrat, Valsad yesterday. I had a lot time to think and study but I had just passed whole day sitting on chair under a tree. Initially I revised Fotang rituals in my mind and later I had been sitting and walking on same place. I went to washroom twice  and did not visit the program venue for a minute. My outer appearance was not good. I was also feeling hesitant to talk to other workers of kitchen. They offered me breakfast contained with onions that I could not refuse. Later they asked me to have lunch but I ate around 4 p.m. only puri and chatni and dinner after 10 p.m., puri with carrots and cucumber to maintain pure vegetarian. It was also a test if I could practice pure vegetarianism and I got 80%. Whole day and till 11 p.m. night I was sitting on chair under the tree. I didn’t make new friends who can help or remember me in future. I didn’t socialize with them.

As a Walky-Talky attendant it was my first time to do this work. Workers were already experienced and knowing about Walky-Talky. The caterers’ boss used to use nice words for ladies like ‘Ben, Behan, Pativrata.’ His son and daughter-in-law also helped him. He and his son, both smoke but son doesn’t smoke in front of father. Father also knows that but the good thing is, father doesn’t make his son ashamed and feeling guilty for smoking. The boss was really having good understanding. He had an eye on everyone who had done food or not. 
I had much to talk yesterday but now cannot remember. I did not write yesterday because I had to save mobile battery. I want to sleep today though no updates for auditions are on Whatsapp groups.
12:36 p.m. Monday 22nd May 2017

Helping Is Possible On Same Level. 

You cannot help them until their minds are ready to get your help.

You cannot ask them – ‘May I help you?’

You will be ignored.

If they need your help but are hesitant, will not ask you to help them.

You know they are hesitant but they need your help, you can’t go ahead to help them.

They’re hesitant but they need your help, you ask ‘May I help you?’ Their ego may get hurt.
Helping is between two or more people on equal level of understanding. A master and disciple are on same level of understanding only then they can exchange and communicate successfully. Master is no one but an having more experience and practice than disciple.
No-one is upper or lower, senior or junior. We all are same. Our mind in third level is almost blind and caged inside own boundaries. They cannot listen you properly if you are trying to solve their problem. Mind is not ready to allow your words to reach it.
Most of us are living like this.

We need help.

We cannot ask for help.

We can help.

We do not help.

We get hurt if one asks to help.

We wait for them to ask for help.

We keep ourselves on different levels.

– If they need help, they should ask for help.

– I can help, but why do I?

– I’m able to help means I’m higher.

– If I ask for help, I will be considered lower.

– ..
Still, you can’t help.

You are asked – ‘How to download this song?’

You know, but to clarify the question you ask – ‘Video or Audio?’

Your clarifying question is ignored and you see them suffering but you cannot help them. You could have help them and song would be downloaded within a minute but you see them suffering and still you cannot help.

— different levels of minds.
22:30 Friday 19th May 2017

Three Lines Of Encouragement!

You can do!

You are nice!!

I will help you!!!
— These three lines I learned yesterday in Tao Class. It was regular Thursday class but DCS was here for her casual visit. She talked about so many things. I like to listen DCS because their topics are relevant. Unlike other religious gurus they talk about normal things and their speeches are not preaching. DCS are normal people with better understanding. This DCS is one who helped me to getting the treasures so I like her a bit more than others.
One has to be ready to accept their failure as well as success, politely. I will give me 70-80% out of 100 for this. I see my mind is not so polite to see things equally. I’m working for it and I should help others to get that simplicity. Though everyone of us is different, we are same inside. When our emotions and thoughts are wiped out, cleaned, we all are same – no comparisons are there.
Duality helps to understand outer world. It also leads mind to total mess if it gets attached with things. Hosh is there at front, but mind is not always there. The highest, purest level is near and possible for everyone to reach there. Just need is to encourage them with three lines —
You can do!

You are nice!!

I will help you!!!
I may not have money to help financially. I may not be having that understanding, to solve their problems. I can, at least, encourage them to get forward.
— for what?
Either it’s matter of psychological spiritual matter or worldly affairs, three lines are great encouragement.

I’m not going to search them but would be ready to encourage who comes to me. It all should be left on circumstances. I politely accept that my Boat is Small.
21:55 Friday 19th May 2019

Me as a Dragon in my Dream

Today, (17th of May 2017), early morning I dreamt that Chi Chi, Melody and me were somewhere. They were standing under a tree but everything was also green.
I was sleeping on grasses under the sky. Suddenly I felt small transparent snakes not more than 5 inches are crawling there. Chi Chi started taking pictures of those small snakes in her mobile phone while I was afraid and running away from them.
Gradually number and size of snakes increased and I tried to keep my feets away from them. I found me two wings came out of my shoulders, my hands and legs were there but a long tail also appeared. I had become a big red coloured snake like Dragon. I was not transparent like other snakes there. I could not see my face but tail and wings only. I hated those snakes and flied away in the sky far from Chi Chi and Melody.
23:56 Wednesday 17th May 2017

Dhamma : Not a Religion

Buddha says – Do not waste time and energy to search for Ishwar or Brahma. There is nobody to come from the sky and help you.
You cannot go against Ishwar in religion. You cannot disdain holy books. If you use your intellect which goes against religious books, you are criticized. Dhamma teaches you to think, doubt, go against it to examine, and believe only if you find something is right.
Religion teaches to have Faith in someone imaginary who comes to help you when it’s needed. Dhamma teaches Atta Deep Bhava – become your light yourself.
Buddha says – I do not give you Nirvana, Moksha, Salvation, Freedom from suffering. I just show you the way. Dhamma is a humanitarian way to live a peaceful life.
Many of us, who believe that Dhamma and Religion are the same, need to analyse carefully. Religion has to be accepted, to get into it, with rituals, while Dhamma educates one to to find or create his own way. Religion believes in many illogical existences like ghosts, satan, ishwar, soul, atma, rooh, deities, while Dhamma is logical and based on science. Dhamma promotes scientific analytical way to think, doubt and examine before believe in something.
Religion teaches social inequality, discriminations, while in Dhamma, everyone is equal. Dhamma is the education, knowledge which is available to everyone. You find something imaginary person in religion or someone who unsuccessfully tries to prove himself as a representative of that imaginary one, but there is nobody who claims to be doot or only representative of someone imaginary. In Dhamma you see a series of enlightened people who never claim to be Ishwar, or his representatives. They all were human being with great and purr wisdom.
Buddha says :- ‘Buddha’ is the state of highest and purest consciousness when you are balanced, in eternal peace, love and happiness, beyond of all fear and sufferings. They who reach on that level but rejects to achieve Nirvana for people, are Bodhisattwas. Dr. Ambedkar also is considered a Bodhisattwa in that sense He was an Angel who showed a better way to people of India.
Religion is irresistible while in Dhamma you are totally free. Dhamma never forces you to do or not do, believe or not believe in something. Everyone is free to use his intellect with Prabuddha Way.
23:12 Wednesday 17th May 2017

10-15 May 2017

I had been so busy these days that I could not write any posts here. Two eye-catching incidents happened recently –

Riots in Saharanpur, started on 5th of May 2017

Mother’s Day on 14th of May
Recently I have come to know about Bhim Army or Bhim Sena in Saharanpur which has emerged as a social organization to help Dalits of Northern Indian Region. It’s has no outside political or financial support. Dalits still have to face insults in their daily life. Some other people of Valmiki community has threatened to be Muslims if they are not treated respectfully by other Hindus. Bhim Army is an organization which Dalits really needed against Hindu extremists, Bhagwa Terrorism and Upper Caste Hindus.
All media is their. Saharanpur is burning, news is there on Google, in newspapers, but TV NEWS is busy praising Modi and Yogi. If it’s no report related to Modi and Yogi, it starts provoking feelings against Pakistan. They woke up last time for  Dalits of Una after three weeks, I don’t know when these TVnews channels, Modi and Yogi will wake up for Dalits of Saharanpur!
It was Mother’s Day yesterday. I had celebrated the day with a small cute Tao community. My performance was not good but I enjoyed rest of programs by others. The celebration was better than last year celebration of mother’s day.

It’s again proved that Amit and Me can’t present a good performance. My superstition is still there. The speech of DCH supported my thinking that heaven and hell are nothing but state of mind, she said that in her encouragement to us.
Today, with no fix plan I left for auditions. In 128 part-1, I was said Fit, later I was said Not Fit. I came back to home. Met some friends in evening but I was sad, could not talk much.
23:09 Monday 15th May 2017