Emptiness Gets Disturbed

Today, in Infinity Mall, I was sitting before leaving for auditions. After having a look on Whatsapp, to see if there are more audition updates, I kept my phone in pocket and started meditating. Meditation was the one I was taught in Fotang. There were not much people and it was very peaceful today in Infinity Mall. After few minutes of meditation, a person sitting on my left, touched on my left shoulder. I looked at him. He was chewing something so didn’t say anything but turned his hand in manner to ask me ‘Why, what happened?’ I said ‘What?’ He showed his two fingers from his eyes to the floor yo ask me as ‘Why/what I was looking at floor?’ I said, ‘Nothing, nothing.’ He then stood up, spit in dustbin, sat back on same place.
I got disturbed, I started looking people and then after few minutes I left the place. I was not angry in him.
When I got disturbed, I was in state of constant stillness. I was very much aware and sensitive about the floor and almost 6-7 feet environment around me. I was in that condition constantly for more than three minutes, I guess, though I did not check time. When I was about to be disturbed, I was aware about the poke. Time between the poke and my Knowing was maybe though less than one second but I knew it. It was an achievement. And so, when I was leaving, I was not angry but with the feeling of achievement that in meditating state, I become a magnet. I also knew today, why people used to go to Himalaya or jungle, far from human society, to do Sadhna and meditation practices.
In this time, if one is sitting quietly, at peace, is considered having some problem. Normal person of this age, if he is alone, must be busy on his mobile, checking posts on Facebook, Whatsapp, or other social sites. If you are meditating at public place, sitting normally not in padmasana, still you catch attention of others and you will be disturbed. People are filled with emotions and thoughts. If their mind find you practicing Emptiness, they drain towards you.
20:00 Saturday 1st June 2017

Write For Self

Copy-Paste is not satisfactory.

It’s on Whatsapp and Facebook that people do much copy-paste, forwarding and sharing someone’s post in other groups or their walls.
Copy-paste, forwarding and sharing are not good for one who wants to empty himself. Here it’s my space, here I write for myself. I am here far from the population which are busy following, commenting, criticizing and fighting with each others on social sites. I wonder why people take Twitter posts so seriously and the foolish is – newspapers make news on Twitter posts.
Writing is a tool for them who want to read their mind. It helps to know what and how is in one’s mind – condition is – to write honestly. When writing is not to impress anything anyone or criticize or praising others, its for self. To examine yourself. To see how one’s thoughts has been being changed. How emotions works inside.
One who writes for himself, is actually emptying himself. It’s dumping your thoughts and emotions outside somewhere. If it’s on Facebook, it creates dissatisfaction and unhappiness inside. It may disturb relationship also.
13:25 Sunday 25th June 2017

Two Chalks

Master showed us a small chalk, less than one inch long, and asked, ‘Is it small?’

Of course.

Then he showed a little longer chalk compared to the previous one, almost one and a half inches long, and asked, ‘Is it also the small?’

‘No. It’s bigger’ people say.

‘Actually, both chalks are in or with their length. They are not competitors to prove themselves smaller or bigger than the other. It’s our mind which is comparing them’ I said.
I am also not in any competition or race. I am not to defeat anyone. I compare things in far-near, black-white, wheatish-brown.. to use common sense not to look-down anyone, anything. When I am compared with people – they are rich, they have bought their homes, they have cars.. – I am put into the race in which I never wanted to be. I don’t compare that – do they know Tai Chi? They did theatre? They know meditation skils? ..but yes, money, which was a medium to ease exchange things but has become main cause for all kinds of Evils, is necessary. And I am not good to have it.
Both of the chalks never even have the idea what human beings were talking about them. Chalks do not have consciousness, life.

We human beings are cursed to have comparing mind.
22:29 Thursday 22nd June 2017

Spiritual Entertainment


Peace

Slow pace

Smile on face

Everything turn to be fear if suddenly

A lizard falls on your chest, or

You found a cockroach inside your pants

..all teachings of Buddhas becomes useless! No mythological deities come to help you.
You are sleeping on floor,

You wake up and see everything is peaceful in your room,

You look at everything to appreciate each stuff there

And you see a black, two feet long snake crawling slowly along a wall with no intention to harm you,

You are still at fear.
Our teachings are not true!

We are taught to entertain us.

All religious gurus entertain our mind. People go there to listen them to fulfil their desires of being like spiritual. Mind feels peace, religious (not spiritual), and some kind of holiness we are provided in some places, and we spend our time for these entertainment in all levels.

We don’t want to be educated in real. All we want entertainment.
To know self, one does not need to go to any spiritual or religious guru. Of course one has to learn some techniques, skills from teachers. Gurus are either entertainer or egoist people willing to make disciples, followers to fulfil their hidden pride. They teach nothing.
A normal person without any spiritual knowledge, has never went through any religious books, may or maynot be knowing scientific processes, but deals successfully with situations like a lizard falls on him, or he sees a snake in front of him, is appreciable.
00:35 Thursday 22nd June 2017

Isolated : to meet Real People


Facebook – deactivated

Whatsapp – deleted

Contacts in phonebook – limited

Twitter, Instagram, wechat, line, telegram or any other social sites – no

Active on – Google plus, blogs
One does this to be isolated, to live in peace, to feel collected with self, ..maybe it is also if one is fed up of illusionary world and willing to have real friends who can meet face to face.
One himself is responsible for destroying his mental peace. So many unnecessary contacts. So many friends on web. Chatting emerged with emotions based on unrealistic causes.
Then why on blogs?

Here it’s my place. Nobody comes to read ano bother me with comments. I am not hidden though, I am ignored by mass because I am not a public figure.
How will I get information for auditions then?

Through real people I will meet face to face.
Let’s see, how long one can go!
23:07 Tuesday 20th June 2017

Mysterious Is Hidden and Uncovered too!


There are three universes, they say –

Individual’s

Outside but under the Sky

Unseen/which is still hidden/Secret
Person, knows something about him but not all. Here individual’s universe which is hidden is mysterious.
Outside world- under the Sky, inside oceans, hidden in earth and far beyond the limits in universe – something we know but not all.

Here, the unknown is hidden and mysterious.
Something which one feels but generally not notices and ignores. If notices but not careful about the experience. If carefully experiences, but cannot explain – is hidden and mysterious.
The hidden is mysterious because one cannot reach to it. For one, who reaches there, everything is opened and clear, brighten and shining.
02:14 a.m. Monday 19th June 2017