I was better than others in rituals. I was (still am) devoted, but when I was living in Fotang, for almost three days, I was feeling sad and sorry. I was feeling like useless person and unwanted guest there though I had been taught that ‘it is family!’ I spent those three days at Fotang to translate the book in Hindi. When I left Fotang, I was sad. I would cry if someone would hand on my shoulders. They gave me some biscuits, dandy, for my travel because they know I am now Pure Vegetarian.
When I left Fotang, I was given some biscuits, candies, on bottle water and one umbrella as well. That was more than enough for me to remind that ‘I am always receiver not provider or giver.’ I was thankful to them and ashamed on myself when I left Fotang on 13rd of July 2017. They say, they have informed to master. They say, I am though enlightened but not strong. I accept. I know I am not good at communication.
16:18 Friday 15 juny 2017
Master showed us a small chalk, less than one inch long, and asked, ‘Is it small?’
Then he showed a little longer chalk compared to the previous one, almost one and a half inches long, and asked, ‘Is it also the small?’
‘No. It’s bigger’ people say.
‘Actually, both chalks are in or with their length. They are not competitors to prove themselves smaller or bigger than the other. It’s our mind which is comparing them’ I said.
I am also not in any competition or race. I am not to defeat anyone. I compare things in far-near, black-white, wheatish-brown.. to use common sense not to look-down anyone, anything. When I am compared with people – they are rich, they have bought their homes, they have cars.. – I am put into the race in which I never wanted to be. I don’t compare that – do they know Tai Chi? They did theatre? They know meditation skils? ..but yes, money, which was a medium to ease exchange things but has become main cause for all kinds of Evils, is necessary. And I am not good to have it.
Both of the chalks never even have the idea what human beings were talking about them. Chalks do not have consciousness, life.
We human beings are cursed to have comparing mind.
22:29 Thursday 22nd June 2017
Smile on face
Everything turn to be fear if suddenly
A lizard falls on your chest, or
You found a cockroach inside your pants
..all teachings of Buddhas becomes useless! No mythological deities come to help you.
You are sleeping on floor,
You wake up and see everything is peaceful in your room,
You look at everything to appreciate each stuff there
And you see a black, two feet long snake crawling slowly along a wall with no intention to harm you,
You are still at fear.
Our teachings are not true!
We are taught to entertain us.
All religious gurus entertain our mind. People go there to listen them to fulfil their desires of being like spiritual. Mind feels peace, religious (not spiritual), and some kind of holiness we are provided in some places, and we spend our time for these entertainment in all levels.
We don’t want to be educated in real. All we want entertainment.
To know self, one does not need to go to any spiritual or religious guru. Of course one has to learn some techniques, skills from teachers. Gurus are either entertainer or egoist people willing to make disciples, followers to fulfil their hidden pride. They teach nothing.
A normal person without any spiritual knowledge, has never went through any religious books, may or maynot be knowing scientific processes, but deals successfully with situations like a lizard falls on him, or he sees a snake in front of him, is appreciable.
00:35 Thursday 22nd June 2017
When I was young, before my teenage, I used to play cricket. Later at my 18 when I started theatre, I came to know that good games are not to win or lose. Games are also not for just entertainment but it’s to help one to develop personality, team spirit, to make social, to keep physically and mentally healthy. Theatre Games are like that. Since then I never been interested in cricket or that kind of other games. I prefer theatre games more.
In cricket or football or other games which are played to win, are seen as war. Theese kind of sports are not good for human society. I see, two teams are there. 11 players from India and other 11 from Pakistan. TV media project and advertise it as it’s war between India and Pakistan. Team playing from India is not India. People playing from Pakistan are Pakistani but they are not Pakistan. Audience are kept fool using their emotions. People of both nations watch cricket match as its matter of their national pride. Peace and Calmness of mind are destroyed this way.
I believe, the team plays well, wins. Simple. We should take it just sport not a war.
On other hand – it seems good that people has replaced war with sports, ..ok, but both of the nations should take cricket as normal sport, that some young players are playing for their entertainment, rest of us no need to be worried for any of these teams. Winning of Indian or Pakistani team is not defeat or matter of shame for India or Pakistan.
..but, they know how to cash our hate for each other. They know how to play with our emotions. Hockey or football is not so popular so they use cricket because most of population like cricket. So they project sports as war.
If we understand their game of hate, all such types of games will be stopped.
Theatre teach no hate. Theatre teach real team spirit, cooperation, trust on self and others, theatre helps to nourish love and respect for everyone. Theatre doesn’t make Indian or Pakistani, it makes broad minded good person with open heart.
12:45 p.m. Tuesday 6th June 2017
Silver Medium And Dark Side Of Enlightenment!
Osho was a wonderful person!
I don’t like to read or listen him anymore after knowing that he was explaining the same thing in new way.
He was wonderful because he rose to fame without base. He was one of some enlightened sages who achieved popularity, fame and criticism on level that has been impossible for religious teachers so far. He respected Jiddu but Jiddu didn’t achieve that level of fame and popularity. Osho dared to criticize traditions that Jiddu could not. UG has been criticizing everything everyone and that’s also an important way to see everything. Osho is wonderful because he contains everything. Jiddu is silver side of spiritual wisdom like Mahavira. UG was the dark side like Ajit Keskambalin. It was Osho who couraged to get down on level of normal people like Siddhartha Gautama.
I think, it is easy to stay at peace after achieving that level. Siddhartha and Osho rejected to enjoy peace. They criticized traditions, they challenged to priests, they received fame, critics, popularity, more that both – the silver and dark side spiritual achievers.
Shaiva – a philosophy that includes both, good and evil, white and black, right and wrong, are equal parts of the same. You separate the good from bad when mind is in duality. Like TAI-CHI. Both parts are equal, important, no part is more or less important than the other. Right also has a little wrong in it, wrong too has a little right in it. In SouthAsian Subcontinent, Shaiva Philosophy accept that. It also knows the Medium – the Master.
Mahavira, Buddha, Ajita ..Jiddu, Osho, UG .. there are many more but I find these are best examples to clarify Shukla, Medium and Krishna paksha of That Wisdom. I respect all seges and saints same, equally, I didn’t mention their names.
Ye ca buddha atita ca
Ye ca buddha anagata!
Pachupanna ca ye buddha,
Aham vandami sabbada!!
10:02 a.m. Thursday 1st June 2017
If one is unhappy and depressed with his life, then he searches for internal, individual, personal happiness. This happiness can be so called spiritual mental peace otherwise in most of cases, the person is centralized with himself, his family, wife, children. His personal problems like illness, joblessness, are enough to make him worried and unhappy, disturbed. He has no higher goals in his life. He spends life to fulfil formalities for survival. All his efforts are either for himself or his family or relatives. Rest of world, he thinks, is cruel, unsafe, dangerous place with enemies.
I see people, who misbehave with others wearing cheap clothes, they hate poor looking people, they talk not respectful with countryside people. They, who are literate, English speaking, rich people, are uncivilized and uneducated.
I see people around me – tall, with string muscles, but they are slaves. They are dizzying, sad, bored, looking for excitement in outer entertainment. They smell bad and to hide it they sprinkle sprays, deodorants, perfumes on their body and clothes. I do not hate them. I wonder to see how they live with superficial emotional expressions. They seem satisfied with their lifestyle. They have learned how to live like that. Their strongest desire is to be living. If they are living, they satisfy their ego, physical desires, tongue, and they just want anyhow not to die. It never been so difficult for me to tolerate such people and conditions of society. Now I’m fed up of all these. Everything has become irritating for me. I’m more sensitive for all these. I was taught to be the same person everyone are but now I’m changed. I’m unfit to this society and likeminded people are few.
23:41 Wednesday 24th May 2017
Buddha, after centuries, has been accepted as incarnation of Vishnu by Vaishnavas, but the facts are –
Buddha rejected Brahminism.
Hindu people don’t celebrate Buddha Jayanti.
Hindu people don’t accept Buddha as their teacher.
Hindu people never greet me Buddha Purnima or on other Buddhist festivals.
Hindu people are not aware about their – philosophies and different schools.
Hindu people do not study well about their religion.
It’s true – that Hinduism what we have been introduced is actually a mixture of many different philosophies and faiths which are against to each other. Shaiva, Shaakta, Nyaya, Vaisheshika, Vedaantika, Yoga, Charwaka, all had been criticizing to each other.
Hinduism have been being propagated after independence of India is actually Brahmanism and it declares Brahmins above all in hierarchy, rest all are lower than Brahmins. Nobody can be Brahmin through efforts otherwise Dr. Ambedkar, Phule, would be considered Brahmins. Leave examples of Vishwamitra or Annie Basent. They are exceptional cases. Practical contemporary Hinduism is actually Brahmanism and rest of people must detach themselves from it – if they are aware of their self-respect.
I never criticize Hinduism. It doesn’t exist. What exists behind ‘Hinduism’ is “Brahminism.” It would be good for all Non-Brahmins to leave Brahminism and their rituals, their deities, festivals, and find out their real spiritual faith by themselves, otherwise, despite Indian constitution, their generations will remain getting insulated forever!!
23:28 Wednesday 24th May 2017