स्टडी रूम

एक छोटा सा स्टडी रूम है ।

अंदर जाने का दरवाजा एक ही है जो पश्चिमी दीवार पर है ।
दरवाजे के ठीक सामने की दीवार पर, पूर्व दिशा में खुलने वाली एक खिड़की है ।

खिड़की से लगा हुआ टेबल है, कुर्सी है,

टेबल पर एक लैपटाप, कुछ किताबें, एक चाय से भरा कप, तीन चार पेन एक सेट में रखी हैं ।
एक स्मार्टफोन भी टेबल पर रखा है ।
कमरे की उत्तरी दीवार से सटा हुआ एक साधारण सिंगल बेड है जो कि सात फुट लंबा है ।

इसका सिरहाना पूर्व की तरफ है ।

इस दीवार पर कुछ सुंदर पेंटिग भी टंगी है जो जरूरी नहीं भी हो सकती थी ।
दक्षिणी दीवार से लगी एक शेल्फ है जिसमें किताबें हैं, 

शेल्फ के बाजू में एक छोटी सी आलमारी भी है

और उसके बाजू में एक मटका रखा है

जिसके ऊपर एक गिलास और लंबी डंडी वाला मग रखा है ।

आलमारी और शेल्फ, बेड आमने सामने है ।
मटका और बेड, पश्चिमी दीवार से थोड़ी दूरी पर हैं, 

जहां कुछ और कुर्सियां फोल्ड कर के रखी हुई हैं ।

जरूरत पड़ने पर, सभी दस कुर्सियों को खोला जा सकता है ।
कमरे में वाई-फाई है ।
कमरे में कोई सजावट नहीं हैं ।

खालीपन रखा गया है ।
पंखा है जो चलता भी है,

वैसे गरमी नहीं लगती यहां ।

दीवारें हल्की पीली हैं, सफेद जैसी ।

छत एकदम सफेद ।

कमरे में कहीं धूल नहीं है, कोई गंदगी नहीं हैं, 

वैसे किताबें, जो टेबल और शेल्फ में रखी है;

थोड़ी अस्तव्यस्त हैं ।
किताबों का अस्तव्यस्त होना सुंदर लगता है ।
टेबल, शेल्फ, आलमारी, लकड़ी की है ।

सभी कुर्सियां काली, एक जैसी है ।

मटका मिट्टी का है – ये माॅडर्न वाॅटर प्यूरीफायर भी हो सकता था ।
दक्षिणी दीवार पर एक दरवाजा है, मटके और पश्चिमी दीवार के बीच ।

यह है छोटा सा अटैच लैट-बाथ ।
एक टेबल-लैंप टेबल पर है, जिसको घुमाकर बेड की तरफ भी किया जा सकता है

ताकि लेटकर भी पढ़ा जा सके ।

तीन बल्ब फूलवाले होल्डर में पश्चिमी, उत्तरी और दक्षिणी दीवारों पर लगे हैं ।

उत्तर-पश्चिम और दक्षिण-पूर्व कोनों पर नाईट-लैप लगे हैं

जबकि बाथरूम वाले कोने पर फ्लॉवर पाॅट रखा है ।
कमरे में सांस लेने, एक्सरसाइज़ करने और हंसने की पूरी जगह है ।

यहां ताईची नहीं हो पाएगी, उतनी भी जगह नहीं है ।

पढ़ाई करने के लिए बेस्ट कमरा है ।
19:00 Wednesday 14th June 2017


Marxist Kumar

I think, same like Ambedkar and Lohia, India is not a proper place to apply Marxism in its original way. Ambedkar was though against Marxism, Lohia wanted it to modify according to Indian social problems.
Its true that Marxism is an outside thought which is not 100% applicable in this south Asian subcontinent. Our society is divided and categorized into many levels and castes. Each caste is lower than many castes and above too. The lowest categories of caste are not enough strong to rebel against upper castes. Marxism talks about economic society but here a financially strong person from lower caste is a victim of social discrimination. Dalits from Saharanpur are politically and socially poor but they are not beggars. They have sense of self-respect and this is what they’re fighting for. Dalits want social equality not to be above than upper castes. Here Marxism can not help them. In Jabalpur, 2006-07, I heard someone saying – ‘I’m Brahmins, how could I chew tobacco made by him? He is Rajput and I’m Brahmin.’ — two Labourers on same financial financial status but from different castes are not one for their rights. Marxism fails here.
They talk about science, scientific laws are same everywhere, ok, but when it comes on casteism, scientific laws can be seen crying to seek space. Casteism is though a social evil of Hindus and Hinduism but it has contaminated all people of south Asian subcontinent. Marxists never try to remove casteism of their own. I see many marxists using surnames with their names and getting married within same castes only. Marxists have no daring to go out and reject Casteism in their practical personal life. Marxism fails here too.
I like Marxism because it’s good for everyone, to make financially equal society if there is no casteism. Until, casteism is removed, Marxism will remain just an ideology for sophisticated people doing mental exercise in small gatherings.
10:23 a.m. Friday 19th May 2017

Children To Learn Tai Chi 

Ta – When should I send my 3 years old son?
Wo – ….Where?
Ta – To learn Tai Chi.
Wo – When he is able to understand.
Ta – …His understanding is much better than you. Got it?
Wo – …if you wanted to humiliate me than it’s different thing but for your question, I have answered already.
Who would teach him Tai Chi?

Na, I would not.

I feel, children are difficult to teach Tai Chi. Their energy is uncontrollable and they are not focused if they are not interesting in something.
Parents don’t know what their children want to do or be. Parents wants their children to learn everything, painting, music, writing, dancing, acting, and later they want them to become doctors, engineers, civil servants. Parents are not father and mother. Parents are people who impose their unfulfilled desires on children and want children to do everything.
I think, children below 8-10 years are difficult to teach Tai Chi. If they are above 10 years and still not interested in learning, I would not like to drag them into Tai Chi.
A 15 years old boy was my student. He was in 11th standard. His father asked me to teach him Tai Chi. I found him not interested in learning. His father also used to practice with us so that his son would be encouraged but I saw no progress in the son. He used not to listen my words, his eyes were somewhere else when I was teaching him. Finally, I had to tell his father that his son is not interested and I could not spend my time on him.
Maybe, my processe or method of teaching is not good, it might be very boring but because I was not changing any fee, I could not spend time on someone not interested in learning.
Tai Chi is good if one feels the rhythm.
18:55 Wednesday 17th May 2017

Presence Of Mind!

In a store in US, a man asked for 1/2 kg of butter.
The salesperson, a young boy, said that only 1kg packs were available in the Store, but the man insisted on buying only 1/2 kg.
So the boy went inside to the manager’s room and said “An idiot outside wants to buy only 1/2 kg of butter”.
To his surprise, the customer was standing right behind him.
So the boy added immediately, “And this gentleman wants to buy the other half”.
After the customer left, the manager said “You have saved your position by being clever enough at the right time. Where do you come from?”
To this the boy said, “I come from Brazil. The place consists of only prostitutes and football players!”
The manager replied coldly, “My wife is also from Brazil!!”.
To this the boy asked excitedly, “Oh yeah? Which team does she play for?” 

Presence of mind helps, never Panic, there’s always a solution!

2nd of April, 2017, Sunday!

It was one of my best days today I have spent with friends – Sakshi, Vinay and Bhaskar Bhaiya.
Actually what happened, I got a call yesterday evening for a comedy reality show. The calling person was a girl took my details and asked me to send her my comedy videos or links. So I needed to make some comedy video links and Bhaskar Bhaiya is very helpful in this kind of acting work. I requested him to help me for making audition links. Vinay and Sakshi also got ready to help me. I met them yesterday evening also but it was just a casual meet.
Today, I woke up early in morning, went to garden for Tai Chi practice came back to home, took bath early before 10:30, ate 4 Roti, and left to Meera Tower for my Chinese language class. The class’ day is Saturday but because I could not go yesterday, I requested Chi Chi if the class is possible today. Well, after finishing the language class at 12:30 I went to Bhaskar Bhaiya’s place. I was already prepared for auditions. I have only comedy script which is actually from Hamsa Kar Ley Kilol, written by Arun Pandey ji. I did the play when I was in Jabalpur in 2006-07. I was a British Sepoy in the play. The part I used today for making comedy script is actually performed by Santosh Bhaiya in Hamsa Kar Ley Kilol. What I do is as it he did years ago.
The script is in Bundeli language and character is local man sharing stories to his village people in a public meeting place.
The audition was done through Sakshi’s phone, then Bhaskar Bhaiya’s phone and then my phone was also used to shoot the audition. Then, we made some videos of general activities like talking, having fun, laughing at each other, etc. I could not upload all videos on YouTube but only Audition Video took from Bhaskar Bhaiya’s mobile phone.
Though, I have sent the YouTube link to number asked me yesterday for Comedy Video. I keep that unlisted on YouTube but for readers it’s Available here through Link. I wish to upload other videos too but depends on free Wi-Fi I get next time.
I enjoyed the day very much. This is how I wanted to have my circle with whom I could spend time happily, without thinking about sadness of life. Sadness is there when one thinks about it, otherwise it’s always state of mind like happiness and other emotions.
I don’t know if I will get the chance for appearing in comedy shows, I don’t know if I will be popular and famous in future, but if life ends like how this was spent, I will never be regretful.
23:25 Sunday, 2nd of April 2017

तरह तरह के डर

पुरोहित कहते हैं

भगवान से डरो, और हमारा सम्मान करो क्योंकि हमारे बिना भगवान तुम्हारा उद्धार नहीं करेंगे ।
सवर्ण कहते हैं

ऊँची जाति वालों से डरो क्योंकि तुम नीच जाति के हो।
दुनिया वाले कहते हैं

भगवान से डरो, शैतान से डरो,

पाप पुण्य, पिछले जन्म और अगले जन्म के कर्मो से डरो,

ग्रह, तारों,  नक्षत्रो से डरो,

हाथ कि रेखाओं, जन्म कुण्डली से आने वाले भविष्य से डरो ।
उपवास मे उपवास अगर टूट जाये तो डरो,

मांगी हुई मन्नत पूरी न कर पाए तो डरो,

जादू टोणे से डरो

निंबू मिरची से डरो,

चौराहो पर उतार के रखे हुये उतारे से डरो,

काली बिल्ली रस्ता काटे तो डरो,

कव्वो कि काँव काँव से डरो,

रात को उल्लू दिखे तो डरो,

कुत्ते के रोने से डरो,
रात को गुलर, पिपल के पेड से डरो,

जुने पुराने घरो मे डरो,

रात को शमशान से गुजरते वक़्त डरो,

बाईं आंख फड़फड़ाये  तो डरो,

खाने मे बाल आ जाए तो डरो,

कोई छिके तो डरो,
और भी बहुत सारे डर है जो बड़ेे गर्व से पाले जाते हैं क्योकि लोग दिमाग को लॉक करके चाबी किसी और को दे देते है।
खुद अपनी बुद्धि और तर्क से सोचते ही नहीं।

Energy Rejects Energy! 

​Some personalities does nothing but your inner dislikes them.

Azim Khalique is a 47 years old (according to him) man. He met me one year ago with a friend when I was going to Neela Telefilms for an audition. Azim ji started telling me about his experience in theatre, that he has worked with late Shafi Enamdar ji, Gulzar Saab etc. I don’t know he really worked with them or not but I don’t need to doubt on him. Gradually I felt that my nature dislik that personality. My inner dislikes talking with him. I don’t feel happy to see him. That day with a friend we went to Neela Telefilms and given audition there.
I dislike to talk much with someone meets me first-time. I’m not to become friendly easily. This person talks much. Of course 10 minutes talking on phone is much for me, and that is when if it’s not useful for me. Talking irritates me. I had started avoiding this person. If he asked me to come together for auditions, I make excuses and skip that venue for that particular day.
But I don’t hate anybody!

I keep sending him audition updates on Whatsapp if any requirement suits his age and look. He also sends me audition informations. He got me added in a very useful audition updates Whatsapp group. I just don’t like to talk to him.
Today I went to Yash Raj’s studio near SNDT Juhu to see if there any audition is going on or not. I saw Azim ji there in old kurta, in poor man’s look. I could not go back because he would have seen me. I approached to him with smile and shaked hands. He was called there for look-test. I sat there to meet casting assistants if they could take my intro at least, but after spending more than two hours sitting there, we both together left the studio. His look-test was ok because he was called, I was random visitor.
I don’t hate anybody. I don’t pray to go bad for anyone. But some people are there I don’t like to be with.
Chunmun is another person like that. I feel his personality is very selfish. He doesn’t respect anyone. His motto seems to get benefit fromothers. If one seems not useful to him, he stops showing respect to him.
I don’t know how and why I’m so sensitive.
I got headache after this afternoon and this is 21:16 night I’m not feeling well. I took a drink of lassi but still not good.
Energy from some personalities doesn’t suit my energy. I have no bad feeling for anyone. I don’t hate anybody. It’s energy that is unable to accept energy from some other sources.
21:20 Saturday 18th February 2017