Mysterious Is Hidden and Uncovered too!

There are three universes, they say –


Outside but under the Sky

Unseen/which is still hidden/Secret
Person, knows something about him but not all. Here individual’s universe which is hidden is mysterious.
Outside world- under the Sky, inside oceans, hidden in earth and far beyond the limits in universe – something we know but not all.

Here, the unknown is hidden and mysterious.
Something which one feels but generally not notices and ignores. If notices but not careful about the experience. If carefully experiences, but cannot explain – is hidden and mysterious.
The hidden is mysterious because one cannot reach to it. For one, who reaches there, everything is opened and clear, brighten and shining.
02:14 a.m. Monday 19th June 2017

No Plannings!

​I have no decided plan!
20th’s evening I thought, I would wake up early morning to go for Tai Chi practice then I would come home, then I would to go to Bhaskar Bhaiya’s house for completing the script of play we are planning to perform in near future. I would stay whole day there writing the script.
What happened –

I woke up in 21st’s morning very late around 06:45 am, I had to skip my Tai Chi practice. Then I was cooking meal and got a call from Neeraj Dada for a performance on 27th. I informed to Bhaskar Bhaiya and group to change time of meeting in later half. I went to Neeraj Dada’s place. I understood the project and prepared a performance. The video we sent to the Creative person of the project but she sent us another suggestion. I had to spend entire the day there till late night and after dinner when we were about to start writing a new script according to their reference video, he received another call from a senior who suggested us not to start work until they pay us a little money for confirmation.

We stopped.

I came home late night and slept.

Today I had invited my another friend for the same project at Neeraj Da’s house, and because I couldn’t reveal her what happened about the project, I let her come there. I also reached there so that she may comfortable with new people. We took a kind of voice audition of her.
When we were practicing songs, I received a call for a meeting from a production house. I had to leave the place saying I will be back soon. There at production house I came to know I was called for an audition for a mythological show. Well, performance was ok ok, 6 -7 takes I had to do, and finally the audition guy said OK.
I was in makeup room, got another friend’s call whom I think is helpful to get a movie in recent future. I went to see him and after a short talking I came back to infinity mall, to meet two other friends respectively. I invited both of them at my house for tea. It was a casual talk about street plays, auditions nowadays, etc.
Now at 21:39, I am going to have my dinner. Hope, tomorrow I will be able to go for Tai Chi practices which has been stopped since 11th of March, before Holi festival.
I have no plan for tomorrow because I see all circumstances can be changed and one has to be relying on spontaneity of his mind. Pre-planned schedule is good but I don’t know what and how is about to happen.
It’s good. I’m learning much from life!
21:43 Wednesday 22nd March 2017

Hidden Is Revealing! 

First – I requested to ask her if she can teach me Tai Chi 85. She herself asked me on Chinese New Year Eve if I want to learn 85 and I went to Bharat Van public park, opposite Bamandaya Pada bus stop yesterday. There I came to know that all 24, 32, 42 & 48 I know is nothing but just movements and postures. There in Bharat Van I’m learning not just 85 but also nuances of Tai Chi.
Second – I was too tired yesterday before sleep and in night when I was sleeping, I suddenly found my tiredness of gone. It happened in few seconds and I felt that in sleeping, I was aware. I remember, I had a long deep breath. And I was relaxed.
Third – I dreamt that I was gifted with white-coloured wrist watch. I was at wheel chair. I had small problem on thumb in my right leg. I stood up. Wrist watch was so beautiful.
14:03 Monday 30th January 2017

Animal Within Me!


I’m not what I say about me. I’m not what I think to be. I’m also not what I was in past.
I’m what I do in given situation.

The instinct I have inside me, I recognize it as an animal. Everybody has an or more animals inside them but rarely one recognizes it.

This instinct is not genetic, not heretic, not even created by self. Its what one is in the deepest core of him in his mind. Nehal Pandya was a handicapped girl, unable to walk, but when there was earthquake in Bhuj, she ran towards the door leaving her wheelchair behind. That’s her instinct she had but was hidden till the earthquake of Bhuj. People may call it ‘By God’s Grace’ or ‘Miracle’ for Nehal but isn’t it her own hidden power that refused to be seated on wheelchair when the earthquake happened?

I may say ‘I will fight for you’ but when time comes I don’t stand for you, it means my words were just what I wanted to be. ‘Willing to be’ and ‘want to be’ – both are not what ‘I am’. Same with ‘I was’ that is past. Sometimes words seem fake, and that’s not lie.

Instinct is what man does without thinking, without planning, but when the time comes. Instinct makes one do what is in his nature. Two people born and raised in same environment behave different on same given situation. If they are attacked in same way same time, they will use different method to save themselves.

Someone asked to J. Krishnamurti what he should do when he is attacked, Jiddu replied that it’s not matter what one should or not do, one does how his character has been constructed for. Hui said ‘I would run’, one of my friend in school said ‘I would fight’, but that is all their thought not the truth. Truth reveals itself when the time comes.

What I would do if I will have no home, I think sometimes. I make plans for being a monk or do add jobs to earn money, etc. but who knows what I will do ? Maybe I would go die starving (Sallekhana). We can’t judge someone for his doings in particular situation. One does what his instinct makes him do. A girl was raped and his boyfriend was asked why didn’t he save the girl. Asaram a fake godman said if the girl would have imagined those rapists as her brother, she wouldn’t have been raped.

One’s character is his act not words. And thus we don’t know about ourselves too. We can not guess other’s doing for given circumstances. Tomato & Egg become oppsit after getting boiled. Same with people. Given circumstances are same for all but someone raised himself while someone gives up, surrenders.

I can’t say what makes one stronger than others. I even can’t say who proves himself stronger then other and in which situation. ‘Panther’ was our pet bitch when I was kid. Some kids of our area made her fighting with neighbour’s dog which was a little bigger than our Panther. Initially she was reluctant and a bit afraid for fighting but later after few minuts when she found the kids wouldn’t allow her to flee from the fight, she fought strongly and beat that dog. At the end, Panther was winner of the fight.

Panther was physically weaker and smaller than the dog but it was her instinct that made her winner. What animal was inside Panther that time? Was that animal who made Nehal running to escape from earthquake? ‘Animal’ is not proper word for that instinct. It was the instinct that made Siddharth an enlightened Buddha otherwise he could be a great emperor also.

Mystery continues and unfolds itself when the time comes. Till then are strangers to ourselves.

Where Revealed and Hidden are Together


After spending entire the day running hither and thither he was moving now towards his home, slow, tired and sad as the evening was. Checked his mobile phone to see msgs, and confirmed he has saved the number of a friend she met him at noon after a long time. Again he started moving to home through  narrow busy market street, vegetables and other shops both sides were making the narrow way narrower.

He was nothing but an another passer by among people there in market walking through the street, slowly and tired. Suddenly he felt someone softly pushed him ahead was a girl, whispered ‘chalo, jaldi chalo’ (move fast, move fast). He gave a look to back left for a second, but didn’t see her face, and kept moving forward in same pace. That girl walking behind him overtook him and got disappeared in market crowd.

He neither saw her face nor followed her, but kept walking on his way in slow pace, her words had been echoing in his mind until he reached his home, and then he thought should he take her those words as an advice, suggestion or an order or what? His common sense does not allow him to take those words in any symbolic way.

Someone told him to be aware of those hidden languages generally ignored and remain untold still comes out and responsible for giving a way to human society and mind, but how can a realist differentiate both? Knowing the point where revealed and hidden get apart from each other or meet together is still a mystery making feel him alone in a field beyond the world.

Learning is a process never comes to an end.

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