To Search For Bh.

After leaving Mumbai I didn’t want to go to Balaghat but had to take bus from Gondia to Balaghat. I met Shafi only there but didn’t tell him why I was going to Jabalpur. I spent almost whole day there in his clinic and got the bus at 11 pm night yo Jabalpur.
Reached to Jabalpur in early morning. Shailendra came to take me his home. I revealed him my intention to visit Rampur Bouddh Vihar but when we reached there, we found Bh. Karunapal ji was not there but another Monk had 8 years experience who was not authorized to Give Chivar, so asked me to take Robe from Bh. Karunapal and then come under him at Rampur Bouddh Vihar to seek allowance from committee members tomorrow.
We went to Nirbhay Nagar, Ghamapur, to met to Bh. Karunapal who, after knowing my brief introduction (I reminded him we met in 2006-07) he asked me why I want to be Shramner and for how long time. I replied to spent entire Varshawaas. He suggested me to visit Bh. Rahula from Ghatkopar and second option he suggested was Bh. Dhammashikhar from Balaghat because that’s my native place and would be beneficial for future, he said.
I didn’t go to Rampur back. I took my bags and Shailendra dropped me in train to Nizamuddin, I am in. Going to see Loni Road Buddha Vihar, Shahdara, New Delhi if Bh. Ashwaghosh is still there.
20:39 Saturday 15th July 2017

Where Is The Problem?

I was better than others in rituals. I was (still am) devoted, but when I was living in Fotang, for almost three days, I was feeling sad and sorry. I was feeling like useless person and unwanted guest there though I had been taught that ‘it is family!’ I spent those three days at Fotang to translate the book in Hindi. When I left Fotang, I was sad. I would cry if someone would hand on my shoulders. They gave me some biscuits, dandy, for my travel because they know I am now Pure Vegetarian.
When I left Fotang, I was given some biscuits, candies, on bottle water and one umbrella as well. That was more than enough for me to remind that ‘I am always receiver not provider or giver.’ I was thankful to them and ashamed on myself when I left Fotang on 13rd of July 2017. They say, they have informed to master. They say, I am though enlightened but not strong. I accept. I know I am not good at communication.
16:18 Friday 15 juny 2017

Theatre Games Are Better Than Other Sports!

When I was young, before my teenage, I used to play cricket. Later at my 18 when I started theatre, I came to know that good games are not to win or lose. Games are also not for just entertainment but it’s to help one to develop personality, team spirit, to make social, to keep physically and mentally healthy. Theatre Games are like that. Since then I never been interested in cricket or that kind of other games. I prefer theatre games more.
In cricket or football or other games which are played to win, are seen as war. Theese kind of sports are not good for human society. I see, two teams are there. 11 players from India and other 11 from Pakistan. TV media project and advertise it as it’s war between India and Pakistan. Team playing from India is not India. People playing from Pakistan are Pakistani but they are not Pakistan. Audience are kept fool using their emotions. People of both nations watch cricket match as its matter of their national pride. Peace and Calmness of mind are destroyed this way. 
I believe, the team plays well, wins. Simple. We should take it just sport not a war. 

On other hand – it seems good that people has replaced war with sports, ..ok, but both of the nations should take cricket as normal sport, that some young players are playing for their entertainment, rest of us no need to be worried for any of these teams. Winning of Indian or Pakistani team is not defeat or matter of shame for India or Pakistan.
..but, they know how to cash our hate for each other. They know how to play with our emotions. Hockey or football is not so popular so they use cricket because most of population like cricket. So they project sports as war.
If we understand their game of hate, all such types of games will be stopped. 
Theatre teach no hate. Theatre teach real team spirit, cooperation, trust on self and others, theatre helps to nourish love and respect for everyone. Theatre doesn’t make Indian or Pakistani, it makes broad minded good person with open heart.
12:45 p.m. Tuesday 6th June 2017

Thought After Thinking aLot

“Thought After Thinking aLot” is actually my Whatsapp posts in keralite groups every morning. They all post in Malayalam while I don’t understand even a word of their language, they keep me there with them. I try to keep my posts a bit funny hoping not to hurt anyone. Sometimes my title for posts are “Thought After Drinking aLot” and sometimes “Thought After Sleeping aLot” but both doesn’t suit to be all time title. Another is my name – I mention my name Shraddhanshu Shekhar at the end with “Mumbai Ka Chokra.” I wanted to add “Swami” word with my name but after two-three times I dropped the idea. Now I have left “Mumbai Ka Chokra” also and started using “Kosmian” instead. Kosmi is name of the village I was born. 
Here is my yesterday’s post under *Thought After Thinking aLot* 🎣
_Life is very short. It’s like small size cigarette that finishs before you start enjoy smoking. You can buy a longer cigarette but that is expensive. Some people in Mumbai, I see nowadays, they smoke long, thin, white colour cigarettes. That is very expensive. Poor people cannot afford expensive cigarettes. So poor people smoke bidi, that old style Indian cigarette made by leaves of Tendu Patta Tree. They seems supporting traditional Indian culture by smoking Bidi while Cigarette Smokers looks like promoting western culture. I don’t support any of both. I supprt AgriCulture, because farmers are backbone of India. I respect farmers. I respect you all who tolerate my thoughts everyday. Thank you._
*– Shraddhanshu Shekhar, Kosmian* 😋

Master Knows

Ta – What are Doors to receive informations from outside world?
Wo – Doors for getting information from outside world are –

Eyes

Ears

Nose

Tongue

Skin

Chinese philosophy doesn’t include Skin in Five Senses. Rather they accept Consciousness, Intellect, Ability to Judge Right and Wrong. Indian philosophies recognize it as Sixth Sense. Western people misunderstand it with Intuitions. Dreams, Imaginations, Hypothesis, are not the main controller, the Master. All Indian philosophies even Charwaka accepted Sixth Sense as Swa Vivek, Intellect.
Ta – The Master, seems helpless, handicapped without Senses.
Wo – Here I have something not clear for me. Of course, without Senses, the Master is helpless to receive informations from outside world. But we should know that the Master knows everything. It may know something without Senses. It may also know something which is beyond the limits of our senses.
Ta – What is not clear in that.
Wo – Master seems, handicapped without Senses. But it also seems knowing all senses jobs too. Maybe your eyes cannot see something but The Master knows and informs you.
Ta – Intuitions?
Wo – It’s misunderstood with that, I have already said above.
Ta – If they don’t accept skin, or touch as a sense, how do they get information about hot and cold?
Wo – Actually, Chinese ancient people assumed that Eyebrows are the fifth sense. But it was wrong. South Asian philosophers believe skin as one of five senses are also wrong. It’s the Master who knows everything. He feels that hot or cold. He is the one who receives informations, analysis, synthesis and orders too.
Ta – Is that like Jeeva in Jain Philosophy?
Wo – Jeeva also has similarities with consciousness. Jeeva is a mixted concept of onsciousness, atman, Intellect, praana. Master is similar but not that.
Ta – Is that always in heaven?
Wo – No. There are different levels of mind. The heart experiences different feelings emerged by information from outside world or thoughts. If experiences are because of thoughts, that also either from inside or outside world. If Master is stronger than senses, it’s in heaven. If senses are out of control, or Master is under influence of one or more senses, it  definitely experiences the hall.
Ta – Seems that heaven and hell are state of mind.
Wo – All heaven and hell we read in books are imagination by our ancient people. It’s their way to tell us what and how they thought about results of good and bad.
Ta – Good and Bad also can be just results of our mind. One doesn’t like to chew tobacco and other likea to chew and smok it.
Wo – Result decides.
Ta – Is there always Cause-Action-Result ?
Wo – Sometimes it’s opposite of it and sometimes all three are at the same time.
Ta – Where is Master here? Doer, the one creating Causes or the one who experiences the Result?
Wo – The one, who observes the chain, without getting involved in process.
21:51 Wednesday 31st May 2017

Be an Observer not a Thinker! 

It is the same way he was on yesterday but he is not the same person. He was a normal person yesterday, ignorant of his own thoughts and emotions. Now, he is aware! And when he reached on her doorstep, he was thoughtless but awakened. Buddha said – ‘See inside and don’t do anything. Remember! Each thought must be under your observation. No thought may pass without your permission. Just remember that.’
He stepped on her doorsteps. He was able to see his own breathings. He could see all movements of his hands, legs, everything. He was having lunch and feeling it was someone else he was feeding to.
When you become an observer, you will be in duality. This duality is not an illusion or hallucination. It is the last step of detachment. You will see yourself acting speaking doing all things and you are also another person at the same time. Doer and Observer! Both are different but same as well.
He had finished his food but it was someone else who was having food and he was just an observer. They say – ‘You are the observer not the doer.’
He was shocked. He came back to Buddha with divine happiness in his heart.
If you are aware then there is no thought. If you see inside yourself as an observer, you may have emotions but no thoughts. Thoughts are secondary, emotions are primary result. The time, when you are free from thoughts but awakened about emotions and aware about breathing, movements, ..You will clearly see Doer and Observer are different.
‘That is the Sutra’ Buddha says, ‘one who is fine to see this, is able to be a Bodhisattwa!’
Remember!

BE an Observer of Thoughts not Thinker!!
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(Tried to summarize a Whatsapp post in my words!)
21:58 Monday 8th May 2017

Sheep’s Opinions About Wolf!

People are sad to think about others,

‘Why did/do they say about me that?’
Ok.
Answer is – ‘It’s because of their limited understanding, conditioned mind, narrow mindedness. So they cannot analyse properly all the things, and thus you see them saying wrong about you.’
Answer seems simple but it’s not applicable for many people.
If someone says wrong about me, I examin first –

Is that good for me?

Is that bad for me?
Someone says – ‘Shekhar is a fine Actor!’

Maybe it’s wrong but good for me.

Someone says – ‘Shekhar is worst Actor!’

Maybe it’s true but not good for me.
Someone says what is all because of his mind, his circumstances, his thinking, his mood, his intention, etc. It doesn’t change me. If I’m stupid, great marks on my university certificates can’t change me. Same way, if I’m good, someone’s wrong word/action cannot change me.

Still, this is one of reasons for sadness that is suffering.
I, need to examine.

What people are saying about me is right, or wrong?

What they are thinking about me, and how is my image in their minds – I cannot know. What I know is just assumption what others are thinking about me.

So, in that case, even my mind gets stuck with opinions which are not based on facts.
If, people are saying about me is right, if I really have something to be fixed in, I must do it. And I must be thankful to to people for letting me know what is wrong in me. If they are wrong, then it’s ok. I must not be worried about their opinions. Now, after centuries, we came to know that Aurangzeb, Mohd Bin Tughlaque, were great and nice emperors. People are free to speak, it’s their right and they should use it.

20:53 Saturday 15th April 2017